I appreciate all of your replies. Unfortunately, I'm still feeling scared! Could you all please help me understand a little bit more about why this still might be scaring me so much?

I've made some good progress in therapy in the last 3 months or so. The progress I've made recently includes admitting some anger/grief about the way i was raised, instead of my usual thinking that my parents did everything right and i was wrong.

I also, when grieving, let my t comfort me physically.

I also recently did a visualization where i pictured holding and rocking my own inner child.

These were all big, big steps for me. I felt good about them.

But then my t started talking about "bringing the wounded child part of me into the present." And I've been feeling scared ever since.

When she says to "bring the part of me stuck in the past into the present," i think she wants me, when i get triggered, to recognize that i am an adult in 2010, and that i am not a child re-experiencing my trauma. So when i get triggered into feeling that she is rejecting/abandoning me, i will realize it as a trigger from the past, not something that is happening in the now.

This makes sense to my logical adult mind. But it terrifies me on a different level.

When she says to bring that child part of me into the present, does that mean that the child part of me disappears? That really scares me because that vulnerable, hurt part of me feels very real.

If child parts come into the present, do i still experience them as separate? Will my t stop having a relationship with them and only relate to the adult me?

I'm scared.

This is so hard for me to explain. Does anybody know what I'm talking about?