I'm in total agreement, Mastifflovr. You really need to reprioritize some things in your life right now, or there's no telling what will happen. I'm MDD also and I know exactly how you feel!! Please make time to talk to someone, very soon!

You said you have tried "all" the meds...could you define that? Is there a chance you've tried mood stabalizers..i.e. Lamictal, or Depakote? These are very, very effective!!

My thoughts are with you and hope you get better soon. Keep us posted.