tryingtobe - yes, it is much easier to be depressed than angry or speak up! What I'm angry about right now can't even be addressed because I broke ties with the people that I'm angry with. That should have solved the problem - no more people, no more anger...but no, I'm still angry and depressed that I can't fix it - NOT EVER!

Flagwriter - no meds yet. It's gonna take a little time to sort out paperwork etc. I don't have a primary care doc - hated the one I had and refuse to go back. He just wanted to wean me off meds...take care of body and mind will follow kind of guy. If you are depressed, get over it kind of guy. No whining. He always made me feel guilty and uncomfortable - not good for a doc.

YES, I know exercise and diet can help. too depressed and asthmatic (at the moment) to exercise. When I get back on track, I'll start going to the gym regularly again. Ironic isn't it?