yeah - I am still trying to make sense of this too... T (and my medical dr) keep saying things like "you're highly intelligent" - ??what?? highly intelligent people don't have problems or mental health issues?? I also keep thinking, if I were *that* intelligent, I wouldn't be in this situation (no life, no job, no ability to hold one down, tons of anxiety, DID...etc). But then T tells me (and books show) that DID is a highly creative coping/adaptive skill. T and GP say that if I could just get things together, one day I'll take off like nothing else. I wish they would speak in concrete terms. "get things together"!?! what does that mean?? I'm going to have to start using T Talk with them: "Tell me, T, what does that mean to you? Can you say more about that, T? Why don't you expand on that, T."
But she points out that I'm making straight A's in Grad School and graduating this May and "clearly excelling in some areas...." Which doesn't help when talking to SSD. (goes back to that whole ssd ppl can't be intelligent - wtf?!?) Just because I can read books, comprehend them, and spew out info doesn't mean i can function in the world as a "healthy adult". Just because I am mature, well groomed, and excelling in some areas doesn't really mean emotionally/mentally I am any older than the 16 yr old I feel like. I plateaued at that point, and haven't found the skill set to move forward. They wouldn't expect a 16 yr old to hold a 40 hour a week job, support themselves, and run a household. They ask how old I am, I tell them 33 - the body age. I know what name I am supposed to go by and what age I am supposed to say - but it doesn't MEAN anything to me. They sure don't ask that in their questions. I guess I should tell them more of what I *think and feel* rather than the everyday facts that ppl can ascertain for themselves.