Once again, i've messed up. I can't do %#@&#! right, ever. I should have listened to him. I should have just continued to give in to him, and to hell with what's right or fair or what anyone else wants.

I should just be a total ***** and tell my kids they aren't going to get %#@&#! because I say so, and tell them that I won't help them with school work and if they fail it's their own damn fault, and if they don't like it to deal with it and maybe I should call their dad because they're smart *** mouths aren't welcome in my house.

I don't do that now, and I'm going to end up needing to watch my daughter continue to spend 50% of the time with him because of it.