mixed_up: I think I was more desperate than brave, but thank you! I HAVE to explore it with T. I am so scared for tomorrow's session. I feel like I want to tell her something I told my first T, something along the lines of what I'm saying in this thread, but my words are SO shameful to me. I don't know if it will help to say them or not.

I feel like there is some HUGE issue here, and if I am totally honest it will help me. But I don't know if I can talk about it or not. I'm scared! I don't know my T well enough, but I can't go another week holding this in. That I know for sure.