I dont knwo how i missed this psot before...and thanks Sept for bringing it back to the top.
I have the weight of the world and a few other planets on ym shoulders lately with no answers or options.
Ive been streugling all night with sleepwaking up every hour and a half to twohours in a major panic....sweating liek crazy, extremely anxious an dshaky and my heart rate out the roof.
Ive taken two xnax as per Dr's orders when i need them .It woudl get me back o sleep but onylbriefly.
I have to wake up in an hour for a SS Dr appt which cant be missed either . Not that Im sleeping .but I can fel the xanax startign to help.
I paced the hosue frantically for a bit and evern got all my clothes ready in case I had to go the hospial didnt wanna go in my jammies. Go figure...Im dying but worried about what I have on.
I think its mroe a matter of "being prepared" thats probabyl negative thinkign but I get mroe freaked outif Im not "prepared"
Was bad enough I almost woke the other person here but that would have been a huge mistake and was glad I resisted that urge. Figured it was jsut as ok to leave a note if I had to leave. I can never seem to "run" from the panic attacks though i try my hardest. Home isnt a safty zone anymore again and now even my sleep has been invaded when I need it mroe than anything right now.
everythign is jsut a bit overwhelming and I usually find answers or options but Im empty handed this tme and its hard to handle that idea.
Your post as great Clau...Ive read it several times now trying to distract my mind. I hope it is somethign i wll be able to use. But Ill have ot read it whn im not totally on edge cause all i can do now is try to fight off this atack without freaking out totally. Im ready to jsut jump inthe car and try to drive it away. But smart enough to knwo thats a bad idea.
my hear t rate is finally lowering with the meds and hopefully if I la dow n Ill hear the alarm.
Now that I foudn out I have the high blood pressure too it jsut seems to add fuel to the attacks wondering if thats what is wrong and if Im ignoring it.
but lik my docotor once said...I promise you...if youwere really haveing a hert attackyoud of had it by now. Oddly enough ti was reassuring...if it doesnt killme within minutes I can pretty much knwo tis an attack and do whatever I can to make it go away as fast as possible.