Thanks a lot ETeacher!

Its good to be reminded.

A cyber ear is appreciated. I feel so burdonned... cant think of another way to describe it... I cannot believe all this time and effort has been in vain. I feel like kicking him so hard (and I am not a violent person). All sort of thoughts going through my mind- maybe he just played with me all long and bought time...

I keep saying to myself that he is not worth it or me if he can just throw it all away and let me go. But I am 35 and been with him since I was 28 and I am just damn angry. Of course I am sad too.

I am thinking about all the stuff I have to do now - look for another property, pack everything, etc on top of sorting my career out which has been affected by him... (I lost my last client because I could not take the pressure of it all).

And for what? And you know, he is asleep snoring like it all just does not matter to him...