I hate nighttime. Everything is worst at night. And there is no way I can get a hold of my T. I feel like I end up in this same spot of wanting to hurt myself. It is hard to see the reasons not to. I want to hurt myself.
Why is it always worse at night, besides the fact that I'm alone? Then I feel stupid if I call T because it's probably better when she calls back and then worse again the next night. I hate my life. It hurts so bad and I feel so alone. Everyone else got to hurt me. Why can't I?