I am a recovering drug addict, there are certain things that I can and cannot do due to my past choices, I cannot see old friends, I cannot go to any of the old places I used to hang out at, I cannot use drugs (obviously) and I cannot watch porn or masturbate as these are all trigers for me and can cause me to fall back into addiction which is a dark place I dont want to go back to. most of these things I dont have a problem with...

However I have a problem with the porn and mastubating, I know it is dangerous for me and that it can have hectic consequences. But this doesnt seem to be able to stop me. I dont know what to do, I get overwhelmed with lust and there is nothing I can do to stop it and when I did what I wasnt supposed to do I am overwhelmed with guilt and shame and I get urges to use drugs which is the worst part, then I fall into fear and anxiety and the ball just rolls down hill and I just dont know what to do.

so far I have not touched any drugs but I know that I am walking on thin ice!!

I go to support groups but I dont feel I can really talk to people about this (even writing this is extremely hard)

to add to all of this, this goes against my faith and everytime I slip I feel futher away from God and It is harder for me to get back into his presence because of my guilt and shame...

I dont know what to do... help!