Now I am so sad. I went to T last night and I had a really hard time speaking at all. I know we need to talk about certain things but I don't want to. I told her that.. And I told her why.. Talking about certain things gives me an awful unclean feeling. She said that's not how she wants me to feel. So does that mean she doesn't want to talk about it?? She also said she wasn't sure if we were on the same page with goals and asked what it would look like when therapy is over. I left feeling shut down. I feel like she wants me gone and doesn't want me to talk about certain things because they make me feel bad. Yuck... I don't want to go back. I just want to cry.