I know I am pulling up this old thread, but I want to respond to everyone who posted to me

Pachy- its true- these things can come up later- I always seem to process while *I* am away.

I just want to relax and just "be" and play with the puppy (she's doing great btw and sorta house traiining....sorta...). It does take practice. And the ability to compartmentalize as Sunny once put it. I would like to practice that. I am not sure HOW to do it, unless I already do it

Sannah- There were two things ftt told me this week about keeping "busy" and one reason was to keep my mind from thinking too much and the other was to feel "productive" and I do it I think for both reasons. I also do it for this fear reason, I think. I find it so difficult to just "be." I even wonder who I am when I am just "me." If Im not "doing" then who am I???

Slowinmi- I am really LOOKING DESPERSATELY for a good mediation CD. Id love to do something like that. I mediate on my breath. I need more practice with that. I can meditate and slow down when I do yoga, but I am moving so maybe it is differerent?

(((Romijo))) I can understand those feelings. It is a painful place to be in. And so difficult because the connection that could help us and support us the thing we are afraid of. Do you ever talk about it with your husband?