Himandy.
Thanks for caring. I just feel all alone at the moment. I don't see my T for nearly a month cos she is trying to spread the sessions I am allowed out until we know what will happen long term (she has referred me to someone else). I've lost my best online friend and she hates me.
I like your ideas but I'm not sure I could do them. I'm "programmed" to help out but you are right I am chipping away at my own self worth - which was pretty low to start with.

The analogy of the lions is a good one.

I just don't know how to tell him I need more help without making him angry.
C