moonrise: yes, I think I will feel relief after I tell her. At least I hope so.

tree: Thank you for being here for me when you are struggling so hard yourself. I've already told her the general idea, but not specifics. I hope I can because it's bothering me too much.

peaches: My appointment is in about 5 hours! I have an upset stomach, partly from nerves I know. I could write it down. The words are "baby words", not to do with the subject, and I did tell a T in the past, and she made me feel ashamed--not the T I just had, a different one. She told me very few people would tell their Ts what I did. Bt, the one you know about, thought it was okay. Maybe it's not important... I don't know....or maybe it is. Sorry to be so vague. It's not such a big deal.