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Originally Posted by ripley
One is the belief that I should not need any kind of taking care of, because I do not deserve it.
she inevitably turned on me later and used the exact vulnerability I had exposed as a weapon against me.
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Originally Posted by ripley
Yes, it is like the mask of "I'm not so bad off, nothing that bad really happened" slips away. And there is great shame in that for me. Speaking of or letting my emotional self be visible was generally met with rejection or punishment.
The longer I spend on this thread, the more I don't even think I should be posting some of this stuff. I feel like I will get in trouble, or be accused of making stuff up, or trying to get attention I do not deserve.
Even being taken care of this much is setting off alarms all over the place.
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This is a lot of good insight Ripley. Just keep being aware, working through this stuff at your own pace, and keep taking good care of yourself. Working through this stuff like this is how you heal............
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........
I'm an ISFJ
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