its almost been a year since my break up, but i still find a way to be depressed everyday. my ex has moved on long time ago and she is happy now (i could see that from her facebook pics with new bf). i want to be happy for her, and i am, but i just simply can't get over the fact that i lost her, that she is no longer mine and i never had control of her life. i did see a therapist few months ago fresh after the break up, but haven't done anything for past few months. have had some suicidal thoughts lately, so i have decided to start therapy again. i don't know why i can't get this simple thing thru my thick dumb head that she is not everything in life.. at times i have hard time to comprehend my thoughts or trouble speaking to people. i have also had times when i question what is wrong with me. wish there was a way to just erase all my memories. i would give anything to not remember anything and start fresh.