Thanks Lil rebbitzen!

Well, I tried to keep some things from her and got frustrated when she kept pressing me for answers.
Basically, I wanted to cancel my appt. with her but not let my gf know I canceled it because I wanted to do some things I guess I shouldn't do.
Anyway, it blew up into a big thing for me because it seemed like my T immediately decided I was going to harm myself during that time and she didn't give me the benefit of the doubt. And she didn't just accept my answer of not really wanting to tell her what I was going to do.
So, I got really angry, told her she had balls to just assume I was going to do something I shouldnt.
Made me think that if that is what people are going to think about me when I won't give them answers they want then I might as well go hurt myself since they are expecting it anyway.

See, my plan is to fake it for a bit...get everyone all excited about how "good" I feel. So they can back off.
And I can quietly go AWAY.
But, right now, my T isn't willing to back off. She is pressing me more then ever before. And, although I guess at times I need it...I don't want to disappoint anyone.
I don't know if any of this is making any sense...but you asked....