I hate how I feel. I've ran out of medication. I can't afford to pay for them myself. So, I placed on a med. assistance program and it could take 4 - 6 wks to get them. I feel lazy, tired, down, miserable at times. I burst into anger at a drop of a hat which really sucks. Some days I don't even feel like getting out of bed. I've gotten my old spending habits back. My wife and I are bickering a lot more and I hate myself. So, I guess what i'm trying to say is, i'm back on the old depression wagon. Yippie ****ing skippy!!!!! I was doing fine on the meds. then I ran out. I find myself medicating with beer.
I ahve a lot of stress right now. My dad was in the hospital, I have finals in school. I want to apply for the EMT program but not sure because of my past duii's. Oh yeah i have a crappy job. But at least my family still loves me!!!!!!!