It was wrong for others to abuse you, and it's wrong for you to abuse anyone else, including yourself. Just me but you should be more concerned about what it does to yourself instead of the dammage you do to your friends and families. SI might help you cope for a day, but in the long run it is a horrible cycle to get into.

I have fallen into this cycle far too often, know what it has done to ME, I'm once again trying to break free from this distructive cycle I hope we both can do it.