(((((Kaika)))))

I understand your pain and confusion very well, it is something I struggled with a lot when first telling T about the abuse, my memory of it is spotty and murky, and I may never know all the answers to my questions, I will never have hard evidence to prove the event, all I have are my memories, little clues, little pieces to a puzzle, that may never make a whole picture, but I"m okay with that, it's something I think many of us as surviors have to come to peace with.

Please be kind with yourself hun, take this journey one small step at a time, we all heal at diffrent rates, we go at the pace that works best for us.

It's hard to admitt it, to say it, even to ourselves, you don't have to take taht step till your ready, it took me almost two years of being in and out of therapy before I could write it down, before I could say it to T, let alone myself.

There are going to be those that will out of their own seflish protection and fear deny your experinces, tell you you remember wrong, becaue the reality of what you went through upsets them too greatly, but don't let them plant seeds of doubt in you, YOU know the truth, you know your story.

I wish you so much peace Kaika, you are a very kind caring soul, with a lot of smarts and heart, I am here for you step by step in this journey, never heistate to pm me.

Much love
Typo