(((((((englishteacher))))))))) So sorry you are under so much stress dealing with all of this right now.

Don't entertain any guilt. It is a waste of energy. Yes, there are always people worse off but that is no reason to deny yourself the help you need. Perhaps some of those folks would not be where they are at had they been able to access the meds and services they needed at a better time in their lives. Perhaps witnessing their suffering can be used to reinforce the need to do all you can now to take care of you before it puts you in their shoes.

When you are feeling better perhaps there will be a way for you to become of service to those people worse off than you. There is always a way to turn what you witnessed for good once you are on a better road yourself.

I know the heavy burden of worry and I know the relief of faith. Believe in better days and stay the course of getting the help you need.