I did it today - this morning I left the house with my 2 dogs to take them to the groomers. I usually have my husband go with me but this time I had to go alone. I dropped them off and then drove around for an hour before going back to pick them up. I'm still shaking and it was over 4 hours ago that I got home.
Then I had to go to the Post Office alone to mail a book to a friend in Canada (it's a book for her Father), and I was shaking and my voice was low and shaking.... I had to buy an envelope and make out a special form for a package going outside of the US - I was almost in tears when I got home. Maybe that's why I'm still shaking - that was only 2 hours ago. Now I'm so tired and shakey... I just want to go to sleep. I hate leaving my house - I hate it!! I get so scared and there is nothing to be afraid of so they tell me... I try to avoid people at all costs. I never know what to say, I look at my feet or the floor and mumble. I can't even do my scrapbooks anymore because I have to talk to the people I did them for.... I just can't do it!!!! WHY????!!!! If I take my Xanex, then I can't function - I just get really sleepy.

Anyway - I did it, I went way outside my comfort zone. And I'm not going to do it again for a really long time!! I'll learn to cut my dogs hair myself if I have to. He's all white and fluffy....really fluffy now after his bath and comb out. He had to have his fanny, face, and feet (claws) done. Both dogs are as worn out as I am! LOL

I think I'm so stressed that I'm rambling so I'll go now. I don't feel good that I made it out of the house - Shouldn't I feel good that I did these things all on my own? Instead I feel dread, shaky and tired.