((jennaorgana))

I think that your attitude towards developing a romantic relationship (avoidance) until getting through your emotional challenges is a pretty healthy thing right now. That takes acceptance. Acceptance of being alone ~ rather than looking towards others to make you who you are. That may sound sad to some people, but it is wise and healthy.

Looking to another man or woman to fill a void inside is sad and unhealthy. (Yes, I'm guilty of finding "myself" by being with others....too many times.) Even now, I am terrified to be alone. Dealing with all of my stuff plus have a romantic relationship is WAAY too complicated. As you can see, you are farther down that healthy self road.

Provided you are actively working through your troubles, you will certainly be in a different state of mind next year. So, try not to kick yourself, thinking you are crazy for avoiding sexual relationships (or desires). In my experience, when I was down depression lane really low, I didn't have desire or sexual thoughts for a couple of years. That isn't abnormal.

At least that's what the T said . LOL ~ just kidding!

Just give yourself some time to work through things. It will get better. It may take a while, but it will get better. My T loves to remind me that the one thing I can count on this world is change. Things will change ~ often. The trick is to learn to just keep holding on to make it through the many changes we go through in our lives.

Gentle ((hugs)) to you!