I used to think I was depressed. Now I think I might just have PMDD because all my mood problems flare up around my cycle. Anyway I don't want to say too much because I don't know if it's allowed here. This is basically it:

I'm 16 years old and have been feeling not so great lately. Mood swings, hopelessness, basically textbook depression. The only thing is that it would go away for periods of time, and mostly come back during my ~monthly cycle. The mood swings were extreme though and worried me. I currently am on my period and just now I was hit with this wave of emotion. I just felt like I have no friends that really care about me, that I'm too anti-social to ever really make friends because people don't like to do all of the work, and that no one will ever really care deeply about me. I have had somewhat "suicidal" thoughts before, but never really made a serious plan. I don't want to say too much here because I don't want to get in trouble.

Please don't tell me to just "talk to a doctor" or "talk to my parents" because it's not as easy as that. I'm not ready for that yet. I just told my mom I think I might have PMDD and she barely seemed interested. I know you mean well, but if you tell me to "just talk to my parents" it won't help me.

Any advice? thanks.