Lauru, I am sorry to hear about the state of things. As a Bipolar patient I truly understand how it is. I have lost almost everything due to my illness (I also have panic and anxiety disorders and I am also an 11 years sober alcoholic). This illness just takes and takes and when you think it's taken enough it just takes more. Even if we are really diligent with meds, therapists, and for me AA as well. I work at a rate of 100% on all of them, but I still fall inot holes all the time.

This may not be appropriate for your situation, so if not, please disregard. Would it be possible for you to sell you car and get around by public transport? I just know that one of the things I have had to do over time is let go of big financial committments (one for me was my house) to have some relief from financial pressure. As I say, your living arrangements and local public transport may not make that ideal.