So I've realised that when I like someone I become obsessed with them. I dream about them, can't think about anything but them at uni, continually play conversations over in my head and so on and so forth. It's getting to the point where i'm exhausted... bleah...
It usually doesn't bug me this much, but just this time i feel like i just want to scream until the voice in my head shuts up. I feel like i want to do just about anything to stop it.
This guy I'm currently obsessing about, was with me up until two weeks ago and then he casually "mentions" that he really likes this other girls he's been seeing. I wasn't mad cos we weren't really together together, but i thought it was on the way towards that. I guess i was just a bit more hurt and now i'm confused. Cos i still like him but i think that i shouldn't still like him.
Can you see how the thoughts can become very circular. I keep thinking about what would've happened if I'd spoken up earlier and told him i wanted to date seriously.
I see him constantly at uni and somehow we are still friendly. All i want is to be with him again. It's like a strange sort of torture.
What do I do?
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