My boyfriend is so caring and loving and we get on great. He's very emotionally supportive and is always there for me when I need him. I couldnt ask for more after a failed marriage. We loved each other and he saw a future with me and we talked about moving in together. Everything was rosy. I suffer from manic depression but whilst with him have never been so happy and stable in the last year.

Ok, Last saturday he got very drunk. I'll be meeting a good male friend of mine and going to a club soon and we discussed this. My male friend does have a soft spot for me and my boyfriend isnt happy about me going out with my friend but we talked about it constructively and he accepted it. He also told me how much he loved me blah blah. Then later he hit me on the leg and the bruise came up on monday. He was so sorry and made me hit him back but as much as i wanted to as angry and upset, I couldnt do it. He told me when he has more money again he will lavish it on me and take me out on the town, wherever i want to go. He seemed really sorry and seemed to be trying to make it up to me...

On 2 previous ocassions whilst very drunk again, he put his hands around my neck and squeezed lightly until uncomfortable. There had not been any argument just one of our deep conversations we have when drunk.

I know I'm a victim of physical abuse and everyone will tell me to leave him but when he is sober which is 99% of the time, he is the sweetest man. When he is very drunk as opposed to drunk then things happen.

we've text tonight and he's told me to trust him, give him one last chance and that it will never happen again. He has not blamed me in any way but has called himself an idiot. Yes he is more than an idiot but what i've read abusers normally blame the victim for their abuse together with giving verbal abuse and/or emotional abuse etc and I've not had any of that at all, far from it. I said i would give him one last chance and told him things wont be the same until I regain the trust and he said that he understood. I will also ask him to cut down on the drink with me and I'm sure it will happen as he's mentioned we drink too much at times. What do you all think ? If I leave him, i will be so upset but knowing if i'd gven him one more chance he couldve changed for the best, will forever get to me. however if i stay, there is a chance it may happen again but this time I will try to control him and protect myself and get away...for good.