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Originally Posted by pegasus
(((((((( purple fins )))))))))  This thread was not meant to make anyone returning feel bad. I was seriously glad to see you come back and I am happy that others have returned but what is so difficult about just taking a break? It means you keep your post count and saves members worrying about you. Can you see what I am saying? |
I can understand what you are saying
and I can also appreciate the hurt of feeling left behind, a back turned, an absent chair.... I do understand.
with that said-- when a person is VERY fragile- and VERY ill-- the post count is the least of things going on in ones head. I did give my email address to anyone that kept in touch with me through PM as I didn't want them to feel abandonded.
I had to leave-- delete the account-- that quieted the voices-- you see? the voices left me alone, as I had fewer social connections then.
I'm sorry I can't explain more right now-- I have to go to doctors... have an outpatient op I have to go have done this morning
have to log-off for now.
Please know I understand your fragility of abandonment. I"m so sorry you hurt in that way (I feel that way at times too when people have gone away)-- please, can you understand this part of mine-- the fear of being accepted? ... the very idea of being a part of something-- I starve for it and yet this "thing" keeps me from it. (I know it's backwards... I'm backwards.... it's just the crux of the disorder) I really have to go before I'm late! I'm sorry I can't converse more at this time.... doc will be upset if I'm late!
PM me if you need/want to.
fins
pegasus--