I see T tonight. I am trying to decide if i will tell her or not (sounds lame) but really mostly what she says is "Do all that you can, Kiya, use all of your skills". a lot of good that does me when i can feel my inner landscape about to break loose the storm. From the way she talks, she has no power over things like this - they're a "level 2 clinic" which means they usually do not work with people with severe mental illness or people in crisis. (trying to not let that idea get to me). Last week T even said they do not even work with bi-polar unless it is well contained and under control.
It is just sad - in more ways than one - because I am DID - multiples - which is technically not a "mental illness" - it is a complex coping skill that no longer works. The mind isn't ill - it was creative to a fault.
you know - it may just all be too much. if my brain unknowingly got me/us into this mess, then we may have to knowingly (and without "professionals") get us out of this mess on our own.