I posted a trigger warning on this cause some details are very gross.

I have to start by saying that I am very embarressed by this. It makes me feel ugly.

I have re-occuring groin cysts. Boils really. The alternate from one side to the other. Over time they have incresed in size and frequency thus causing me a tremendous amount of pain. Well, I am dealing with yet another one at this time. So painful I cant walk straight. It has awoken me from a sound sleep and I am in so much pain, I could just throw up (sorry, I know its gross).

I have been to the DR several times. My treatment has ranged from instructions for soaking for 10 minutes in hot water every hour to having them lanced. Despite this, they still re-occur. I was told after seeing a speacialist that this type of thing is very common in women but not talked about because it is very embarressing (really?).

I am very anxious right now because the pain is so bad. I have taken 3 Advil and about 20 minutes ago I soaked in the tub for about 10 minutes. I am waiting for the Advil to provide some relief. It's 4:30 am and I have to be in 2 hours to get the children ready for school. How can I do this when I cant even walk right? I keep thinking that one of these times I will get an infection and it will get in my blood and something bad is going to happen. I'm scared.

I am really tired. I cant sleep. The pain is awful. Thanks for listening.

Jen