Let me tell you a few things I learned this week that could help you. First and formost, I was Suicidal for several years, I know how you feel. I also know how it feels to let go of those feelings. The sooner you do it now, the better off you will be. You may still feel down but, you'll be safe.

Second let's look at a few of the things you said... "I thought about how nobody would care" I have to say, MANY people would care about it if you left this world. It's like being away for some time but you can't come back. People do miss you when you go to another place away from them. Weither you believe it or not.

Next, "I hate this feeling" The thing I said after that is, ME TOO. We hate it but in the end when we not give in to temptation but learn from the experience.

Finnally, try and distract yourself, it does help. Being on here can help. You can PM me and I would be more than happy to help. And remember People do care about you. Please try and be safe, and keep us posted. WE care!!