Hi tryingtobeme,
Many thoughts with you... I would have to agree with Rohag and englishteacher. I remember when I was first looking for a therapist. People told me to check out different ones. Please don't be angry at yourself. It is no different than needing a prescription for anything else. And these things are not so simple, he needs to leave enough time to explain the drug, possible side-effects etc. and also hear other problems you are experiencing. Untreated depression is very serious. Geez - it sounds like this guy is in the wrong job.If you can't wait to get a new doc from insurance you might try going straight to a hospital or walk-in clinic and explaining your situation. Hang in there. You didn't ask to feel this way and you completely DESERVE to be treated with care! Maybe try and find a different pdoc?