(Like I always seem to say, I hop from one idea to another a lot.)

I need to learn to control myself before I possibly kill myself. I recently got a razor (from a pencil sharpener) and began to cut my thighs. Now they are all cut up. I know about the whole infections and gangrene, but now I have no idea where to cut. I can't just cut my wrists where it will be noticeable.. So I just resort to my legs, but even if I did cut anywhere else where I am not covered up, I still am at risk for getting an infection.. But the SI actually helps me. I feel better afterwards and stay that way until I want to cut again and I start all over. One more thing, I am sorry for most-likely disappointing many people on PC and people that I personally know. I am sorry for saying that I could do it, but I know I can't. Someday I'll get this right..