I hear you english. One more thing on top of overload. Just what you didn't need especially now. I know you will figure it out somehow. Try to take a break from it for now. I have been through many of the same issues with my son who is now 16. All through school I asked for help but none was provided and still the years ticked away. Like you I did the best I could but it never seemed enough to fix anything. I take some comfort knowing that he knows he is loved and can rely on me to be there for him no matter what. Sadly its more than some kids have going for them even though it is so very important.

Take good care. Somehow it will work out.