Hi!
I have suffered from terrible loss too. Many deaths, including my brother's suicide in January.
I've lost 2 homes...and I'm now estranged from one of my daughters. (She believes that it is a moral failure to have mental & emotional issues.) Hate to say it, but she is very pinheaded when it comes to many things which can happen to oneself.
Affectionate...she is not. Glad my other 3 kids understand my suffering.
Yeah it's tuff to handle life alone.
Try to have hope, because without it...the human spirit just withers away like a dry leaf in Fall.
Hang in there!
~Dottie