((((HUGS)))) Heather and Zen.
I am getting up on my feet today. Went to work. Talked things through more with my best friend. He told me that the other guy caused a lot of other problems that night. he's not going to associate with that man anymore. I feel so fortunate to have you all here and to have my friend who is standing up for what is right. I had a horrible weekend, but my week will be better.

I told my best friend I wouldn't be using that word anymore. It's caused me grief ever since I learned it is used in the gay community to describe women like me who hang out with gay men a lot. I think i'm not "that word" and would rather not have ever learned the word. before I knew that word I was just dear friends with them... then I learned that word and it made me worry about that and made me feel cheap. Zen... you are right... it's a horribly derisive word. I won't use it anymore.