SO, as y'all know... i knew something was up internally; the landscape i saw in there was one where a storm was gathering. The sky was turning green, the wind picking up, clouds turning bruised in the distance. I mean - i think it may still be gathering, but i am not *there* today... if that makes sense. I got "knocked out" of there yesterday when I got called in to work for 2 hours. and today i was back into blank, flat depression. But i did tell t about it.... and we were trying to see if i needed to get help getting more safety. but since I was no longer *there* atm I couldn't know what i needed or how bad the storm might be - or of what type (t wanted to know; anger, fear, flashbacks...). I think flashbacks but I can't know atm. you know?
drat. but t did say to call if i needed help.