I always thought that the use of medication is to enable us to do the work without overwhelming panic and to be able to go there without being disabled. Ftt has told me to take a klonopin when I need to when we are doing trauma work so that I can function better. What did T mean when he said that taking klonopin is antithetical to what you are trying to do? He wants you to go it alone without the help of the med? Why should you gasp for air? Isnt it better not to gasp and to be able to work in therapy without getting phsically ill?

(((MUE))) I SOOOO dont think you are a failure. You work SO HARD and try SO HARD in so many ways. I fight like heck, too. Its my natural reaction to hold onto responses that have protected me forever. Can I just leave them and do something else? I cant. I fight like heck and I dont even know I am fighting it. You are NOT failing. I think you are fighting like heck to get better