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idk if this counts as ptsd so sorry if i posted this in the wrong area...
a month ago i got drunk with some friends (im 14, this was my first encouter with alchahol). it went horribly. i don't remember the whole night but i know i almost killed myself a few times. my friends watched out for me for most of the night. and later they all left and i was alone in a room with people i didn't know, all adults and i was crazy drunk. everytme i think about this night i can't sleep, i get this gut-wrenching feeling and im just really scared every time i think about this.
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I wanna find something ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong?
he who does not feel me is not real to me
Therefore he doesn't exist
So poof...vamoose you sob
What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate,
can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now.
i'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
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