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Kiya · Mar 12, 2010, 02:09 AM

Heh - no, not asleep yet. 11pm, Thursday night. I OUGHT to be! I'm not sure where you're located anymore. I was thinking it was about 6pm for you on Friday.

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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6

PM me anytime, my dear friend. All night, all day. Its GREAT you have a 6 hour art class. I would give anything to a 6 hour art class. What do you do in the class for all of those hours? It might, just MIGHT help to really focus on creating.

i am trying to schedule one day a month for art class. this one will be travel sketch - ink and watercolor wash. i really like the instructor - tho last class she announced to everyone "This is another one (me) that has really low esteem about her art". @_@ lol I do... but I wasn't expecting her to tell everyone. But she really has helped me improve. =)

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I know it wont be this way forever for you. It takes some time to get used to being out on your own without having to listen to and care for mommy dearest. LOL I know this is going to sound so weird, but at least this pain is yours and you have to deal with it, make decisons, help yourself or not help yourself without having to answer to anyone. I remember spirling when I lived alone or with a roommate and even though I was in this incredible pain, at least I could come and go and do what *I* wanted with that pain. Does that fit for you? Maybe not. I know it sounds so strange. The pain being MINE made me feel better about it.

Well, I'm not sure it makes it *better* per se, but T was basically saying the same thing tonight. She also commented on my skill set that I was working to get things in place for myself and "I know that you will keep at it until you get what you need, Kiya, and that is a very good skill that I am glad you have." I reminded her that I learned it from her lol.
She agrees that I need something that will allow for more therapy hours - something like a day program which allows for several hours of it to work consistantly with someone on trauma.
I did mention that now that I was no longer stuck in mom's holding pattern, I was getting stuck in my own. But T believes I will find a way through it. God their job is so easy (don't anyone hit me - it's a half joke) "say all these positive things enough times until your client believes you and starts saying them for themselves until they believe them."