Thanks for the replies. It made me feel really good just to get some outside perspective on the situation. And yeah I know that i kinda just need to get him out of my head and move on.

Thank you for being so clear.

I've also realised that it's probably very very true that I do want a relationship. I miss being in one so much. I miss all the love and kindness that goes along with it. But I'm sure that it will eventually happen again.