I understand what you are going through. I'm BP and usually just plain old depressed. But last week I was totally numb to everything. Numb - no feelings what so ever. I didn't feel happy, sad, or depressed. Just down and numb. All I could do was ride it out. Now today, Friday, I feel okay. Happy in fact which is a rare thing for me. All you can do it not be afraid, just ride it out. I hope I was able to help...