I know exactly how you feel. I made a post, and I had to resist the temptation to delete it both while I was doing it, and every minute after I posted it. I'm glad you did, though! With the drinking thing, pretty much if you know you're doing it for release, it's best to sleep as soon as you can. Booze has a point where it encourages indulgence in self-destructiveness.

It's probably a forum taboo to comment on your other posts in this one, so I won't do it again, ha.