You're right, Ripley. I need to address this with my T.

I have a fear of criticizing him. And I do get a little glow when he lets me go over. It makes me feel special. He's good about changing his behavior if I don't like it, so I know he'll stop the going-over thing instantly if I make the least noise about it.

I'm afraid to let go of that little reward, even though I hate needing it! I'll miss it. But I hate it! But I'll miss it...