I canceled my T appointments next week, I am tired of everything and all the work. I just need some peace.

I wrote this a couple days ago on how I am feeling.

Exoticflower had been pulled out by the roots and left to wither away, like an unwanted weed. Just crumble her up and let her fly in the wind like confetti floating around during a parade. It was neat to see but will soon be forgotten. The weed killers can now rejoice in their perfect lawns as the weeds are all gone. But the dead worm's tunnels below will cause their foundations to crumble away like an earthquake because their house was built on fear

I just want the pain to stop and stop people being so mean to me. I am a person after all, not just an avatar here. I hope people can remember that.
All I wanted was some support for the horrible things that has happened to me, but my issues are not welcomed here. Just butterflies and hearts are allowed. So I will deal with my issues alone. It is interesting on how my history keeps repeating itself. The truth is NOBODY gives a **** and would prefer that I just shut up. I guess it makes things easier for everyone. Hide abuse so it keeps happening over and over to more and more people. Well I tried but I am just too tired to keep trying.