thanks for everyone's support thus-far.

Less than two more hours and I'll be seeing him. I'm so tired. I feel like I didn't sleep and am still feeling kinda switchy. I don't know how to describe this feeling. I don't quite feel like me like half of me is turned off and the other half is only partially alive. Not sure if this is a switchy feeling or a "I didn't sleep and I'm going to puke I'm so nervous" feeling.

I can't find my list I made. I'm tired of insiders trying to keep my life hidden from strangers. I'm running out of time to convince them that this has to be done or we won't get the help that we all need. DID complicates things so much and I can't even prove that I have it to explain that's why my dysthymic depression and anxiety and PTSD and AvPD and DPD and whatever else is all complicated ten fold by being a multiple.