I seem to be in this repetitive pattern of telling or showing T things and then getting really mad at her. Or finding something to misinterpert. I don't know if I misinterperted it this time though. I had asked my T why it was wrong to hurt myself if everyone else was allowed to hurt me. She asked who I was referring to. I said the abuse from my parents. (She knows the existence of the emotional abuse.) She asked if there was physical abuse or just emotional abuse. This made me so angry. What is the emotional abuse not enough. Does the pain from that not count? Would it make more sense if I wanted to make myself hurt emotionally instead of physically? I just felt like she didn't think the emotional abuse counted. That it for some reason couldn't hurt. Isn't it enough? Doesn't it get to hurt? Or do I need to have bruises, and cuts, and broken bones for people to believe that I was hurt?

This has made me soooooo mad. I don't know if I'm legitimately mad or if I'm just trying to distance myself from her again. I left her an angry voice mail in the middle of the night about this but didn't specifically ask her to call back so I don't know if she will.