Hello Rissie,I'm extremely sorry to hear about your horse. I had a golden retriever named Ginger, and she lived to be 15 years old. I'm in a wheelchair and I used to take her for walks while she was attached by a short leash to the side of my chair. She would walk right next to my chair, and we would walk for miles. She really love to do this. She was a constant companion. It got to the point where she couldn't hear or see very well and she lost the use of her rear legs. We had to put her to sleep and I know the heartbreak that you feel. It was so peaceful yet extremely sad watching Ginger take her last breath. We had her cremated and have her ashes in a nice walnut box with her name on it. Fortunately we have a puppy from Ginger. She's not Ginger by any means, she has an entirely different personality. I wish you the best and hope that some day he will find another horse that you could love.