Thank you so much lynn, I will take a fav. teddy for him, and I hope that facing the hospital, I can help myself too, I know I'll be leaning on my faith in God, it sort of hits you hard when your T, tells you what impact it could have on you and that it could set you back. All I need is to move forward from the disabling event, not backtrack. Your advice is great and I plan on using the slow breathing and confronting my fears and panic. Thank god I don't have to do it alone, my Husband will be by my side. My biggest worry is that I might run into the surgeon who butchered me in the holding area before my son goes into the OR. yikes. I pray I can get through this.