I'm sorry your going through this. Maybe you should call your T or 911 to keep yourself safe. I don't want to be here either. I just don't want to put my bf through having to deal with that. I think posting is helpful though. Maybe your T can get you in a more intensive program, I'm just grasping at straws, not sure what to say to help. I'll just say, I'm sorry and hope you feel better soon.

Anjelmarie